CRETIVE PROCESS-SEVEN SINZ
WHILE RECORDING THIS SONG I WAS MY GIRLFRIEND WHO I’LL KEEP ANONYMOUS. WE HAD BEEN GOING OUT FOR MAYBE 4 MONTHS WHEN ONE NIGHT I FOUND OUT SOMETHING I WISH WASN’T TRUE. AS SHE LAID THEIR IN BED WITH ME IN MY DORM ROOM I ASKED HER ABOUT HER FIRST SEXUAL EXPERIENCE. I LOOKED AT HER EYES, A STRANGE CONFUSION CAME OVER HER FOLLOWED BY GRIEF. I SAW A SINGLE TEAR FALL FROM MY ANGELS FACE AS SHE TOLD ME. THAT THE FIRST TIME SHE EVER HAD SEX, SHE WAS RAPED. I REMEMBER WALKING TO MY CLASS AS SHE LEFT FOR THE TRAIN TO GET BACK HOME. I STAYED STRONG UNTIL SHE LEFT. THE TEARS KEPT COMING AND COMING, THEY JUST WOULDN’T STOP. AFTER THAT OUR RELATIONSHIP KIND OF CHANGED. I STARTED GETTING MORE AGGRESSIVE, GETTING READY TO KICK SOME ASS EVEN IF SOMEONE JUST LOOKED AT HER THE WRONG WAY. THIS SONG WAS IN PART DEDICATED TO HER.
CREATIVE PROCESS-ENTER THE ASSASIN
THIS WAS REALLY MY FIRST BEAT AND MY FIRST SONG. I GUESS TECHNICALLY SECOND, THE FIRT BEING A WRITTEN TO THE CB-4 TRACK SWEAT FROM MY BALLS. I LIKE THIS TRACK A LOT, ESPECIALLY THE SAMPLE WHICH I TOOK FROM FATAL FURY. SMOOTH, INSIGHTFUL, HOWEVER, YOU CAN TELL THAT MY FLOW AND LYRICS WERE NO WHERE NEAR THE LEVEL OF THE STUFF I PRODUCED AND WROTE FOR 50/50.
CREATIVE PROCESS-IN DALLAS
I MADE THIS TRACK DURING MY TIME IN DALLAS TX. AFTER LEAVING FOR TX WHEN A GOOD FRIEND OF MINE DIED, I STARTED LIVING WITH MY BEST FRIEND ANDREW. TEXAS WAS COOL, IT HAD ITS GOOD AND BAD. THE BAD HOWEVER OUTWEIGHED THE GOOD. ONE OF THE GOOD THINGS ABOUT DALLAS WAS THE PEOPLE, MUCH MORE FRIENDLY THAN BACK AT HOME ON THE EAST COAST. THE BAD WAS THAT I COULDN’T STAND THE LACK OF KNOWLEDGE MOST TEXANS HAD WHEN IT CAME TO POLITICS. I GUESS I JUST COULDN’T LIVE IN A PLACE THAT HAD SO MUCH DIVERSITY YET SO LITTLE KNOWLEDGE AND UNDERSTANDING.
CREATIVE PROCESS-IRAQ
I WANTED TO MAKE A SONG ABOUT IRAQ THAT PEOPLE COLD UNDERSTAND AT A VERY HUMAN LEVEL. SO I DECIDED TO DO A SWITCH, IMAGINE FOR A SECOND IF YOU WILL BEING INVADED BY A FOREIGN NATION LIKE IRAQ WAS BY AMERICA, LET’S PUT OUR FEET IN IRAQ’S SHOES. I REMEMBER PERFORMING THIS ONE AT 15 NORTH IN WEST CHESTER PA. GOOD SET, THE CROWD FELT IT AND WHEN I WAS LEAVING, A COUPLE PEOPLE TOLD ME THE SONG WAS VERY CLEVER AND THAT THEY LIKED THE MESSAGE BEHIND IT. I ALSO HAVE A VIDEO UP OF PERFORMANCE AS WELL.
CREATIVE PROCESS-REALITY DREAMING
I MADE THIS DURING THE BOMBING OF LEBANON IN 2006. I REMEMBER THE FIRST DAY ISRAEL STARTED BOMBING LEBANON. I COULDN’T STOP CRYING, COULDN’T STOP THINKING ABOUT HOW UNJUST THIS WORLD WAS TO MY MUSLIM BROTHERS AND SISTERS WHETHER IT BE IN THE US OR OVER SEES. ARIEL SHARONE HAD JUSTIFIED THE ATTACK BY CLAIMING THAT HEZBOLLAH CROSSED THE LEBANESE BORDER AND CAPTURED TWO ISRAELI DEFENSE FORCE SOLDIERS, AND MIRACULOUSLY TOOK THEM ALL THE WAY BACK TO LEBANON WITHOUT BEING SEEN, APPREHENDED, OR KILLED. YEAH I SEE THAT HAPPENING STUPID MOTHER FUCKERS. 1 YEAR OR SO AFTER ISRAEL GOT THERE ASSES HANDED TO THEM BY HEZBOLLAH, WHO HAS MY 100% SUPPORT, ARIEL SHARONE COMES OUT AND TELLS THE MEDIA THAT ISRAEL WAS PLANNING ON ATTACKING LEBANON REGARDLESS OF WHETHER OR NOT SOLDIERS WHERE CAPTURED. THE GIRL ON THE HOOK WITH THE BEAUTIFUL VOICE IS UNITY.
CREATIVE PROCESS-SUNSHINE AND RAIN
I MADE THIS SONG ONE DAY AS I THOUGHT ABOUT ALL THE BULLSHIT I HAD BEEN GOING THROUGH. SUNSHINE AND RAIN, ONE DAY I WAS OUT SMOKING A CIGARETTE. LIGHTENING FLASHED THROUGH OUT THE SKY AS THE DARK CLOUDS LET OUT LARGE MASSES OF WATER. ALL OF A SUDDEN OUT OF NOWHERE CAME THIS RAY OF LIGHT, AND WITHIN 15 MINUTES THE RAIN STOPPED BRINGING FORTH A BEAUTIFUL DAY.
CREATIVE PROCESS-SUICIDE
I MADE THIS SONG AFTER BREAKING UP WITH MY GIRL, THE SAME ONE I PARTIALLY MADE SEVEN SINZ FOR. BREAKING UP WITH HER WAS HARD IT TOOK ME YEARS TO GET OVER HER. TODAY I JUST SEE IT AS A LEARNING EXPERIENCE. NO ONE IN THIS WORLD IS WORTH DEATH. LET ME TELL YOU THOUGH THERE’S NOT A BITCH IN THE WORLD WORTH KILLING YOURSELF OVER, ESPECIALLY WHEN THEY BREAK UP WITH YOU.
CREATIVE PROCESS-YOU’VE BEEN WHORED
IT WAS THE NBA FINALS, I FORGET WHO WAS PLAYING OR WHEN BUT I DO REMEMBER THE PREGAME SHOW. THE SHOW STARTED WITH CHEER LEADERS JUMPING AROUND LIKE THE DODOS AS USUAL. THEN CAME A WOMAN SINGING, BARELY CLOTHED. AS THEY CENTERED ON THE AUDIENCE THEY BEGAN ZOOMING BACK AND FORTH ON THE DIVA SINGING AND THE LITTLE GIRLS IN THE AUDIENCE, AS IF IT WAS A SUBTLE WAY OF SAYING, “HEY GIRLS YOU WANT TO BE RICH AND FAMOUS? WELL UNDRESS FOR SUCCESS JUST LIKE YOUR FAVORITE DIVA AND ONE DAY YOU TO CAN BE A RICH SLUT! SHIT DEFINITELY DISGUSTED ME SO YEAH YOU KNOW I HAD TO SAY SOMETHING ABOUT IT.
CREATIVE PROCESS-IMAGINE
THIS WAS A HARD TRACK TO MAKE ESPECIALLY BECAUSE OF THE SONGS CONTENT. THIS ONE WAS ABOUT WHAT IT WAS LIKE GROWING UP FOR ME AS A CHILD, THE BULLYING, NAME CALLING, RACIAL HATRED, AND PHYSICAL VIOLENCE. I HAD TO SIT BACK ON THIS ONE AND DO IT ONE DAY AT A TIME, I GUESS IT WAS TO PAINFUL TO THINK BACK ABOUT ALL THAT AND COMPLETE IT ALL AT ONCE. HOWEVER I DO BELIEVE THAT IT IS SOMEWHAT THERAPEUTIC TO WRITE ABOUT THINGS THAT HAVE SCARRED YOU AND SO I HAD TO DO IT, TO LET GO OF SOME OF THE ABUSE I HAD BEEN THROUGH.
